(This comes from the 30 Days of Truth meme, which Julia and Cinnamon have also pledged to do. I will not post a truth every single day, but like Cinnamon, I’d like to finish by the end of the year. We’ll see.)
Day #4 – Something you have to forgive someone for.
To be perfectly honest, this truth has been difficult to answer. I searched high and low for the right “something”. I didn’t want to open up near-healed wounds by talking about more private matters and I didn’t want to be sarcastic by saying I forgive Al Gore for inventing the internet.
Then it hit me. It involves something else I don’t like about myself and how I react to certain situations. Stubborn is my other middle name.
If you cross me, big or small, I will stop talking to you. I will do everything in my power to avoid your presence. Sometimes I will even say “I never want to talk to you or see you again”. For an example, back in college, if I needed “a break” from one of my friends, I would avoid the stairwell they used in the dorm and use another bathroom if necessary. (Opposite of stalking? Maybe.)
But you see, that’s just not fair. To just be silent because of a silly comment or a stupid fight or a tongue-tied situation? That’s rather juvenile. While letting things simmer down is always a good idea, this isn’t quite what they mean about simmering down, right?
So, anyways, something that I need for forgive someone for. I need to forgive anyone who has made silly comments, or stupid fights, or tongue-tied situations that sparked Rachel the stubborn. It’s not good to hold grudges – for months or for years or for a decade or more.