Whatever helps.
Whatever helps.
The days and the nights that currently comprise reality are much more difficult than those of adolescence, or grief over lost loved ones, or even diagnoses of chronic illness.
I cannot see the end of this tunnel most days and most nights. The tunnel that is lined with pictures of the past couple years, of surgical scars and CT scans, of a broken heart and lost dreams.
But I take whatever helps me see a glimmer of daylight, whatever helps me sleep through the night. Thoughts and ideas about spirituality that I never allowed to cross my mind before in the dark times of adolescence, of grief over lost loved ones, or even diagnoses of chronic illness.
Putting aside the past and accepting the love that radiates from family and friends; meditating to combat the ever-present anxiety; praying to someone or something that these feelings of sadness will end soon.
And most of all, keeping the faith that I will get through this darkest of times – a little stronger, a little wiser, and a little closer to the life I truly want to live.
Posted on September 8, 2011, in Health, Spiritual Growth. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.
Thinking of you, Rachel, during such a tough time. I am confident that you will come out of this stronger, wiser, and closer to that life, and there are many people in your corner as you make that journey.
Sending all kinds of positive vibes your way. I’m thinking about you, friend!
Whatever helps, indeed.
Been there, done it, and came out with my wholeness intact. You will too.
And most of all, keeping the faith that I will get through this darkest of times – a little stronger, a little wiser, and a little closer to the life I truly want to live.
This last line you wrote is really lovely. I pray that it can sustain you.
Rachel, you are in my heart and prayers. I am glad you are able to let some spirituality into your darkness. That has really helped me. It is my faith that gets me through and learning to pray without ceasing in both my darkness and light. Life is too hard for me to live without God’s merciful presence in my life. “Let us then with confidence draw near the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16
Blessings to you.