I did the church thing for three Sundays in a row, then stopped.
Five weeks later, I find myself as confused as ever.
I thought I wanted a formal space to figure out the spiritual and maybe even religious side of me, while also socializing after the service and in smaller groups other times of the week.
Yet thinking things over, with the two liberal Protestant denominations I visited, I started to get a bad taste in my mouth about the fundraising that was done during the service. I have no problem with lovely music playing while a collection plate gets passed around. It is more the reminders throughout the service that you really ought to put some money in said collection plate.
I do not like it when charities ask too often with endless e-mails and phone calls, why should I like it when a church does? I know that both run on the contributions of the people who support them and all they do for others.
Is it really necessary for such fundraising throughout the Sunday morning gathering time, when prayer and reflection should be paramount?
I guess that is something I need to figure out, maybe by visiting other congregations, before I push away the idea of a formal space to express my spirituality.