Feeling good.

Feeling Good by David D. Burns is a book that was recommended to me when I sank into major depression 3 1/2 years ago. It helped me evaluate how I was feeling on a weekly basis and helped me work out some of the anxiety issues I was having that had led to the depressive episode.

This week, I have used one of those techniques to avoid digging too deep into despair. Using self-talk to a positive effect rather than a negative effect is something that I forget as anxiety builds, but reminding myself how good I feel when I take a positive view on life is needed during this time. So, my life isn’t perfect? Whose is?

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I have also stepped up my exercise routine to start training for the Avon Walk. No more 40-minute walks, we’re talking 60+ minutes along with balance ball workouts at least every other day. I have been desiring something sweet, but I have been on a no-dessert kick since late February and had planned on waiting until my birthday weekend to indulge. I decided to pick up plums, blackberries, and blueberries the other night at the grocery store and have been enjoying a little fruit with some unsweetened soy milk the past couple evenings an hour or two before bedtime.

These two changes have made an impact on my blood sugar readings already after only three days. I was seeing fastings in the low 120′s almost consistently for several months and seeing 160-180′s 2 hours post-prandial for several weeks. Last night’s post-prandial following a meal with a side helping of pasta was 114 and this morning’s fasting was 110. I wonder how much those relatively higher blood sugars were influencing my negative mood.

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I am feeling good. Nothing like kicking it up a notch or two…