Struggling. Lost. Scared.
A1C is just a number. It is just a number that may well be influenced by a thyroid suddenly gone astray after years of stability. It is not horrible, it just happens to be a tenth of a point lower than it was at diagnosis.
A change in scenery is long overdue. Shorter commute, closer to friends, closer to everything. But currently limited by a lingering legal constraint, causing more and more stress every day that passes without a move forward.
At least there is a good job with good health insurance. But changing insurance always brings billing confusion and phone calls and more stress.
I just need to know that the struggle is almost over, that I don’t have to feel lost and scared forever, that life will get better. That the all the nightmares of the past three years are almost over, and I can start feeling alive again.